This weekend, I spent an entire day dreaming... sitting in the sun, doing some sketches and taking my time to be in silence and stillness... to just BE!
The Healer Wind is on the North of the Wheel, it is where we finish something and just let it all go. It is a time to empty out and find the wisdom in our stories or experiences and to share that wisdom with others.
Yet, I find that I don't have words these days to convey what I live. I feel like I have been on this path so long that I forget what it was like when I started.. I notice this when seeing others who are just starting out. I feel their excitement, confusion and enthusiasm. Yet I forget how new and strange this path is to others... how Western living is so different than follow natural and cosmological laws. I don't live in the daily 9-5 world, so I don't have a reference point for their struggles and experiences.
Listening to them talk... I see how so much has to be explained, things I take for granted... and I just don't seem to be able to explain things these days. Maybe I just need to be in silence, or maybe I need to explore the Mystery of Language more....
Right now, I am enjoying my solitude, the hot sun and the silence and sanctuary of my Home! I feel blessed that I don't have to go out into the world daily and work in the world that way others do. Yet I admire their courage, strength, stamina and ability to deal with all the challenges that they face daily. I don't envy their jobs or the money they make. I chose a Spirit path, and although I don't necessarily expect to be rich, Spirit takes care of my basic needs and more. Not to say that others who work aren't on a Spirit path... In fact, I think they are learning and healing and growing tremendously... it's just different.
One friend calls it the path of insanity... he feels trapped in the Western world of work, and paying half of what you make to the government. But I see him as being a great father and provider for his family. I admire these men and women who work at those tough jobs. But wouldn''t it be nice to live in a Shamanic community where we are self-sufficient, where we grow our own food, make our own clothes and meet our own basic needs? I would love to wake up every morning to the sounds of the birds and the winds in the trees and know that I have a collective family that has the respect and love of nature and are willing to work together for a common goal . It can be done, many communities are out there doing just that!!!
I find that this Healer wind has helped me to be in a quiet place. I have many stories to share... and I feel it is time for me to get those stories down on paper, as I have been told to do for years now. If I don't, then I am not following my inner guidance, and I am beginning to feel a lack of direction and purpose.
I can't seem to talk to others in a way that they get the messages they need right now... but I can still write. Maybe I am just slowing down and shifting into my Dreamer who is an Elder and resides on the North of the Wheel, the place of Healing.